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Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Pre-deployment Post

I have read countless blog about husbands coming home from Afghanistan but Ive also seen alot of women say that their husband didnt come home. I am going to tell you the truth. Im not taking this 2nd deployment very good. He has not left yet but it's right around the corner, and I cant even begin to tell you how I feel. My emotions are just all over the place.

About two years ago my husband came home from Iraq and to say that he was the same man I saw leave to Iraq would be a lie. My husband did change, and I learned how to grow with it. He was not as cuddly as he used to and we would get upset very very fast. But I put faith in us and he has made so much progress since then, it is unfortunate though that he is leaving again and we are going to have to go through this again. But I want to do this again, I know I can handle him, and  I know Im the only woman who is going to be able to get him though this.

I know that I am going to have to have a talk with him about the 'what ifs', I dont want to and Im sure he does not want to either, but It is something we need to talk about.

I do want to let my husband know that I am here for him. I will stand by him through the bad. I will be his ears if he needs me to be. I want him to know that he can count on me for anything. If he needs help when he comes back, I want him to know that I will find him the help he needs.

Jaime, you are the person I want to grow old with so you need to come back home to me so we can see our grandchildren someday and fullfill our dreams together.Sweetie,you promised me last time that you would come home.....I need you to make that promise one more time.

3 comments :

♥ Elizabeth said...

(((HUGS))) That is such a hard promise to make, but I will keep him and you in my prayers as I do all of the deployed!

La Cabrona said...

This was very sad for me too read, i can't imagine what your going through, but i as well will keep you in my prayers and be sure that i go on sunday.

♥ Dani said...

Oh sweetie, I've been there with you. It's such a scary time and there is so little that can be done to ease your own mind... be sure to make lots of plans for the time that he is gone, stay as busy as possible, and send as many care packages as your budget allows! Stay strong for your hubby, hard as it is!