I was a little reluctant to write this post but I am going to anyways due to this blog being a journal to look back on. As you all know we will be trying for baby numero 2 this year @ December, and the reason for that is because I will be a college graduate in 5 months from then. Which I need to add, the only reason we waited this long is because of my crazy husband saying I had to have a degree before we can have another child. Damn guy trying to make my life better:P
This past New Years week was the scariest way to end 2012. I will tell you why, better yet I will show you why......
So the next morning arrives and I wake up extremely early 5 am to be exact. I was shaking and I could feel myself so nervous about what was about to happen. All I kept thinking was oh my god, oh my god. So here we go I take off out the pregnancy test...do the test and now Im waiting. Waiting for the momen everythng changes.
Ok 1 minute passes.....2 minutest pass....3 minutes pass.
I look at it, and there is one line.
Ok so I guess I'm not pregnant. Well that's kind of a relief, right?
Not sure how I felt about the results but I thought for sure the I was pregnant.
4 days pass. All I'm thinking is where in the heck is my Period. What in gods sake is going on with my body? Then like I always do I'm thinking oh my god what if I have cervical cancer, oh my god what if it's because I don't drink enough water. All of these things were running through my head and then another thing popped into my head. What if the test was false.
I'm telling Jaime, Babe I think the test was wrong. I start to list the reasons why and the number one reason is because my period is nowhere to be found. After some thinking I was just imagining what my baby would look like, and the clothes I would put on him/her, the photos I will take this time, the fact that my baby girl will finally have a sibling. I was also thinking ok..Im going to started eating more fruits, I even started drinking water a lot. I have to say this wasn't in the plan but my god I was starting to get excited and telling myself the test was wrong, the test was wrong. I was feeling, I dare say, it ready to be a mommy again to another baby.
Then late Friday I saw the thing that I thought I would not see for the next 9 months.... I saw some blood.
Ok....well I guess we really are not having a baby. I was sad for a few hours that this was not going to happen. I did learn something though....Im pretty sure Im ready if there is going to be a surprise baby. I know I said a couple of months ago that I was not ready but now that it is 2013 and it is just 11 months till be start to try for another baby,I would say that I am ready for baby #2.