Oh, breastfeeding. It has been the best experience but it has also been the worst experience. I have mentioned that with Megan I was not producing anything, and then she got jaundice because I was not giving her any milk except for my breast which wasn't making anything. Or at least this is how I see how she got jaundice. I will always blame myself for that.
This time around I told myself that I was not going to breastfeed due to the whole jaundice thing. However, when I got to the hospital I told them that I did want to. So I tried and by some miracle I was producing food for my baby boy. We are now on day 4 of breastfeeding and I know some people might think that its not something to celebrate but to me, it is, I hope to do this for at least 4 more months.
He is getting so much better at latching and is eating every hour now, which I have no clue if that is a good thing but that is what is happening. Sometime I think he eats just so that I can carry him.
I never understood what they meant by breastfeeding makes the bond between mom and baby closer, I just thought that it was just something people say. I was wrong, because of the breastfeeding, I feel so much more closer to my baby boy. Jaime is finding the whole breastfeeding amazing. He is just so relieved that we are having a better time breastfeeding than the first time. It does not give him a whole lot to do so he has pretty much been diaper changing and burping and all other things about baby.
I'm very lucky and thankful that he gets a whole month off for the baby (with pay) and then after he goes back to work my mom is going to take his place. She is taking two weeks off after he goes back so that's nice. I think I'm doing just fine though. It's my house that pretty much looks like a disaster and Im not exaggerating it really is a mess. We have baby products everywhere.